I am reading (with my  precious Accountibility group) "When I Don't Desire God How to Fight for Joy" by John Piper.  It is a stretching read. And to me, it is a deep, hard, painfully honest look into our hearts, our thoughts and perceptions of God, and our true love and devotion ( and the struggle in that) for Jesus.

This week I had some real heart burdens while reading. Humbling, yes. Honest, yes. Sad for me, very.

John Piper said ( and I have never heard it put this way...)
" God is glorified in his people by the way we experience him, not merely the way we think about him.  Indeed the devil thinks more true thoughts about God in one day than a saint does in a lifetime, and God is not honored by it. The problem with the devil is not his theology, but his desires."

How close and neck and neck I come to that. Thank you Mr.Piper for helping to expose me. Humble me in the millions of ways I need humbled. How closely I resemble the devil himself in my arrogance.

Love,
Jenny